What I have experienced…
When I was sixteen I decided that the most important thing for me was to seek a diversity of life experiences. I never forgot that.
My experiences make my life richer. They challenge me and help me get to know myself truly. I feel rich because of various intense and often challenging experiences. They colour my personal perspective and give character to an impersonal life. The insight that life is impersonal came to me when I was 38 years old. Before that I also felt there is more than the personal story, but I had not yet experienced what it was like to surrender to life completely. When I did that, the moment I left Portugal, the life that was everything to me during nine years, something deep happened. I was scared and yet I let go. And when I let go, I fell …
…away…. Not in fear, but through the sensation. In the surrender I felt I was safe. I had “lost” everything I loved. The veil of identification dropped completely and my suffering ended. What remained was an open field, an energy that did not want anything from me. Non-judgemental. Everything was all right. I was safe.
For years I have lived in complete surrender to life, without the need to achieve anything, or teach people something, or to perform. I went with the flow and was open to everything and everyone, and what appeared on my path.
Now I remember what I live for.
I remember you …
What I do
With my creative mind I constantly point to the deep beauty of your true open nature. I can’t help but remind you. This open nature shines through your body, character and your actions. You may remember this partially, or perhaps not yet, but everyone can learn to recognize this again, by staying true to yourself, your needs and deep desires.
Learn to see that you are not your conditioning. Create new and inspiring patterns. Transform yourself back into the beautiful open being you are. And find fulfilment and true happiness.
When I was a child I partially grew up in the great outdoors. I crawled through wild tall grasses, hung upside down in the branches of the swishing red beech and picked up small salamanders and toads with my bitten nails. I was a lot on my own, absorbed in things I encountered and enjoyed that freedom. Yet there were times when I was not feeling well. I absorbed emotions and tensions from my environment. That went without saying, I couldn’t help it. And that gave me stress and the feeling of powerlessness. In this way I unconsciously started to identify with the people, situations and feelings around me.
I have learned through trial and error that it is not bad to identify with your environment, thoughts and self-image, it is inevitable. And it is brave to want to learn to look through this identification. It is the form of love that you know, although it often does not feed you.
Awareness and seeing through patterns, traumas, emotions and unconscious addictions is what I have done naturally from an early age. While, like everyone else, I have also struggled with my own projections and unconscious patterns. And what I found the most difficult to learn was to recognize the beauty of my true nature, to be allowed to be with everything I felt, saw and experienced. So it makes sense that I have become good at it, to help others with that. I have always known that life is a great adventure to experience and gain insight into and share our deep beauty.